You Know You Love Me.

Here I am yet again sitting on the computer typing my life story to you at nearly eleven o'clock at night. So, lately a lot is happening, but I haven't known about it, because people are becoming really good at talking about me with out me knowing it. I am beginning to learn that everyone has a fake smile or wave that they put on as soon as they see you, but once you leave all they do is talk about you and how horrible you are. Yes, I do think that this horrific crime, that I have so many times commited myself is being acted upon me. But, I am okay with it. I am not even giving it thought during my day. I mean, I think I know who my friends are, although it is coming more and more apparent to me each day who is not my real friend. However, just because someone isn't your friend doesn't mean you can't be friendly with them, or at least that is what my mother always says. I am beginning to realize that maybe some of what my mom does say, is true. But, that is for futher investigation at this point, and no final decisions have been made.
Lately, I have been feeling pressured to do something about something that is going on.....or more honestly.....not going on in my life. But, I do not think that I am ready to do this. I mean, I would love to be ready but I am not personally ready right now. Now please do not jump over the deep end with what I just said, I am not being pressured to smoke, do drugs, or have sex. Believe me this is nothing like that. Anyways, I am really trying to eliminate this thing from my life so that my friends will drop it, but everytime I try....it won't go away. It makes me so mad.
Oh, and if you haven't heard...all of those things where I thought that I was loosing one of my closest friend have come true but luckily for me....I have gained her and her boyfriend along with her "new" best friends and there boyfriends in another catagory of my life and that would be "The people who really hate me, and our out to get me" group. haha But that is okay. I really don't hate any of them at all. I am really trying to work on not having a hard heart (as Emily puts it) towards anyone.
Well I better go lay down, and get some sleep....cause I've got a full day of school and softball tomorrow....woohoo.
G'night
Mollie ♥

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Thursday, April 24, 2008