UGH....some people just disgust me, it is not there cleanliness (although that does make me gag, I mean honestly just take a shower!) but there judging and how ignorant they can be to people। How they can just completely ignore someones feelings and only think of themselves. I'm not saying that I am not guilty of this myself but, how can some people be guilty of it so frequently? I feel so bad for it when I do it and I can't feel good about what I did until I really talk to them and make sure that they are ok with me. That is why I am so unsettled inside about lauren and Abby, not so much with Kaity because I don't feel any anger or hate towards her and I really don't mind her. During the play I was able to talk to her like a normal human being, unlike with Lauren and Abby who act like animal hiding from me as if I am the plague. I don't understand how you can go from best friends to biggest enemies. It just seems impossible and undermines the friendship that we did once have. I just hate it, I want the friendship we had to of worked out, the things we shared and the memories we made. That is probably my biggest fear..that I will get in a fight like I did with the twins with somebody else. If that happened I don't know if I could emotionally put up with it. Or even physically put up with it either. That is why I find it so hard to invite new frineds to my house to hang out because I am always wondering....what if? This is a trust issue that I need to work out with myself. Jennifer left for Panama on Wednesday =( which is sad because who I am going to talk to during english? Snowball is tomorrow and I am getting ready with Becky and I am super excited. I feel bad for Jenn that she has to miss this, but she is not going to Panama next year so she will be able to go to snowball! Ok well I better get going I have soooo much to do tonight, such as.....NOTHING! lol
♥ Mollie

another sweetest escape
Tuesday, December 04, 2007