And the quote above that I wrote about the little flame has finally been fulfilled, my heart broke when I saw what I saw and I just stared and all of my memories of him and I ran through my head and I could not think for hours. I dreamt them and woke up with them in my head. The whole day I could not accomplish anything without and thought or one hundred of him. I just hope the feeling stops so that the hurt can as well. When you put so much of your time thinking of someone and talking to them, to see that they really want someone else, it hurts and it stings. Everyone I talk to gives some piece of advice but I don't think they truely understand. My weakness is that I cannot share my feelings well and it always comes across weird. I hate it and I hate myself for this. I get so scared and frozen I am not at all confident. I have no idea what the whole thing I saw meant but it got to me, and I blame only myself. If I would have said something or did something differently maybe the outcome would have better, I dont know. Even after all of this the flame is still burning and ugh I hate it so much. But I am also proud of something I did, I did not take this action personally and today I did something I would not normally do. If you want to know then email me or talk to me at school, I have got to go to bed.
♥♥♥Mollie

another sweetest escape
Sunday, December 09, 2007