about the escaper
MollyBailey
You know you love me, xoxo.
Michigan Simplicity is key, complexity is fun.

past escapes
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008

My Music♥
Mayday Parade, Forever The Sickest Kids, The Devil Wears Prada
Dance Gavin Dance, Cobra Starship, All Time Low, Flyleaf
Shawayze, Katy Perry, Fireflight, Chiodos, Eatmewhileimhot
Automatic Loveletter, Family Force 5, We The Kings, Every Avenue

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Wednesday, August 6, 2008

heyy all!
I haven't written in what seems like an eternity, and so many things have happened in the last two weeks or so that, I need to write and I need to express my inner-feelings.=) I was in my first parade last weekend for band, and I spent the three days prior to that sick with a case of the nerves. haha. I was so wound up in nerves, that everything in those three days are pretty much a blur. I wish sometimes that I didn't get so nervous, I mean their is definitely a problem with me when my life becomes consumed around nerves about a parade.
Oh, so I have been looking for a new skin for my page, and I couldn't find anything for days...but now I have this pretty awesome skin, which is like perfect. Also, so everyone knows...my song is "Amazing Because It Is" by The Almost. I loveeee that song, it is so beautiful. It makes me happyyy.
Eh, I am back to spelling my name the "correct" way. haha. I like changing things about me I guess. =p Also, this summer...I have found that I am much chiller with God, I find my self wanting to please him and not others. I am much more confident in my faith now, and am glad and proud of that.
On the note of "hims" that special him in my life (other then God of course =p). Well, I am still stuck on the boy, I don't know why, there is no real reason for me to like him anymore. But, I hope that there is a point for me liking him. That somehow maybe they are a hint to maybe something real that may happen, or really I don't know. But I know it is something, because it wouldn't make sense for me to have feelings like these and for them to go wasted. =)
Ahhhh well, I better move on to other things....
Nighty-night!
Molly. ♥


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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

Sunday, July 20, 2008


haha. I found some oldd pics. funfun. The first one is pretty my circle of friends....well some of them..but it was on Daniels last day of school. The people in it are...hmm let me see...Abbie, Danielle, Chelsey, Amanda, Daniel, Chas, Me, Kurt, Kyle, Emily, Lori, and Jenn. haha, that was fun taking that pic..everyone in lunch was like "what are all of those kids doing?" haha, the second one is Jenn and I, Jenn being redic, and me being emoooo. haha. The third one is pretty much the same but with Amanda in it too! haha these were taken like right after Jenn got back from Panama...so like a longgg time ago.
Ohmygosh. Warped Tour was amazing...and I will have pics of all of my favorite bands for you once Lori sends them to me...These are all the bands that I saw...or got to see a bit of..
Every Avenue ♥ Mayday Parade ♥ Automatic Loveletter ♥ Forever The Sickest Kids ♥ Anberlin ♥ Family Force 5 ♥ We The Kings ♥ The Devil Wears Prada ♥ Farewell ♥ Relient K ♥ 3OH!3 ♥ and I was going to see Cobra Starship...but they were at the same time as We The Kings...sooooo. It was the best day ever...and I can't wait to go next year..! Mayday Parade is loveee.

♥Mollie


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Sunday, July 20, 2008

Saturday, July 12, 2008


So much has taken place since the last time I wrote, well I went camping with my family, and while on that trip I found out that my dad was going to take me to warped tour...even though I had already accepted that he was not going to take me this year. I was hyped, and for sure still am. Lori and I are going on Friday, and of course my dad is coming as well.=] So, basically I am super excited...and I can't wait to go...there are nineteen bands that are going to be there that day that I really want to see...but my top five right now would have to be...Forever The Sickest Kids, Mayday Parade, Every Avenue, We The Kings, and Chiodos. But, those are definately not the only bands I want to see. haha I think my list may be too long.
Since I download songs so often...I've decided to make a list everytime I post of the top 5 songs that I think everyone should download...they'll be different everytime, I promise! So, here is todays five songs that EVERYONE should totally download...=]
1. Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade
2. Shadowfeet- Brooke Fraser
3. Indiana- Forever The Sickest Kids
4. Handlebars- Flobot
5. Breakfast In Bed- Gone Baby Gone
I would have to say that all of these songs are worth the 99cents on iTunes..but if your like me you'll just go to youtube and get it...haha. None of these songs sound nothing like any of the others...Jamie All Over is the perfect song for the beach, while I see Shadowfeet as more of a worship type of song. Indiana is just a really good song that is catchy..really like all of FTSK's stuff. Handlebars is a pretty awesome song...it just keeps building starting at..."I can ride my bike with no handlebars" and ending with "I can end the planet with an holocaust" and then once again repeating the handlebars line. I think the song is just about how much your ego can get to someone...when you are showing off, like for example that you can ride your bike with no handlebars...who knows how much you'll want to showoff. haha. I love that song...and I obviously wayyyy over think it. haha. Well I am going to move on to bigger and better things for tonight....like probably bed. =]
Mollie


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Saturday, July 12, 2008

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

I wasn't going to make a post today, but when I found out that the bassist from the band Tickle Me Pink, Johnny Schou, died yesterday, I felt the need to post something to just recognize him. To be honest, I had never heard of this band before today, but came across them while downloading music. When I went to listen to the song on YouTube I saw the comments saying RIP in Johnny and that is where my curiosity spiked and I found out he died. From what I have heard from the band in my short time listening to them, they were really good, and will probably never be the same without Johnny. My heart goes out to the family and the band. ♥

In other news, a bit more personal, hopefully more happy...My family and I are heading off to go camping this 4th of July weekend starting tomorrow. I don't really like camping that much, I feel dirty and second class. But it is good to get out of this small town for a while. I got my schedule in the mail today for next year, and I feel like the school is trying to imply that school starts soon, and in all truthfulness...IT DOESN'T! haha.

I have to go to work tomorrow at the God awful hour of eight in the morning...ugh, and since the earliest I've gotten up was today at eight-forty, and only because some retard called my phone and woke me...grr. I would go to bed early, but I find it near impossible to fall asleep any earlier then one...even if I am tired...like now. But, I think that right now I am going to watch some TV...maybe I will fall asleep there. Anyways, Night.
♥Mollie


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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Sunday, June 29, 2008






Today is a good day. I'm not sure why for me, but I can feel it, that something good is going to happen. I don't have to work today...which is really good, I am really tired. So, basically I am just sitting here on the computer typing this haha. I once again do not really have a topic to talk about...but whenever that happens the best posts are made. haha =] So, I think I'll tell you some really weird things about me...first off, before I go to bed each night I have to listen to the new Preston And Steve podcast. Preston And Steve are a morning show on 93.3 WMMR in Philadelphia, and I came across them a few years ago and have been literally addicted ever since. I don't know why but I just love the show, and I can't listen to really any other morning shows other then them. They make me laugh. =] The only thing that made me mad was that they usually do the celebrity birthdays and on my birthday, June 24, they for some reason did not put the birthdays on the podcast....that made me a little angry. haha. But, overall I would recommend that everyone listen to Preston And Steve, I mean if they are like over the age of twelve. You can download their podcast for free on iTunes.

I have once again reveled one of my many flaws to myself. I have figured that I am a very jealous person, probably one of my worst flaws, I try to hide it, but it eats me up inside, and when I finally tell the person that I am jealous of. I usually not say that I am jealous I say, "I don't like you hanging out with them" or something on those lines and then it either ruins the friendship, or places a huge dent in it.
I also have a new obsession...hehe. While I was listening to Preston and Steve the other day they had comedian Nick Griffin in studio, and I found him so funny even though he was really just conversing. So, I went on comedy central and looked him up and now, the picture at the beginning of this paragraph is him, and even with the bad comb-over and the fact that he is probably in his mid-forties I find him hilarious. If you want to learn more about him...you can go to his website http://www.nickgriffin.net/ . Oh, and while looking at it...I realized that he is going to be near me in October.. School starting gifts, anyone? haha. Alright, well I better do something with my day. So, Adios!
Mollie


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Sunday, June 29, 2008

Thursday, June 26, 2008

So,I am not all too sure on what this post is going to be about, something obviously but not sure what. haha. But today is thursday and I don't have to work, but I do have to go to my hand surgeon in Battle Creek, but that is really nothing, and afterwards I plan on going shopping at the mall♥. But, yeah right now I am looking at online at aeropostale for what I want to buy, and let me tell you their is lots haha.
So last night I was downloading some music and came across Death Cab For Cutie's "I Will Possess Your Heart" and automatically fell in love with it. So that is what the first picture is, DCFC my new favorite band. haha. I seriously have nothing to write about, so I guess I will tell you what songs I downloaded yesterday. You see the funny thing is that I took a break from my punk-music love and downloaded some pop stuff. So here it goes:
Burnin' Up!- Jonas Brothers (I never listen to them, but this song isn't all that bad)
Leavin'- Jesse McCartney (I'm embarrassed to say I downloaded it, but...)
If I Never See Your Face Again- Maroon 5 ft. Rihanna
The Time Of My Life- David Cook ♥
Love Remains The Same- Gavin Rossdale
Shut Up And Let Me Go- The Ting Tings
I Will Possess Your Heart- Death Cab For Cutie
haha. I haven't listened to most of those artists since I was like twelve, but I downloaded Cute Is What We Aim For's new album on monday and it is amazing. I mean it really isn't like the older album, it is much more mature and muchmuchmuch different. But, it is good and I plan on listening to it endlessly.
I am pretty bummed lately because I thought I was going to get to go to warped tour, but my parents said no because they can't afford it right now. Which pretty much sucks because I want to go so badly. Their were actually eighteen bands that were going to be in Detroit that I wanted to see super badly. But...I guess there is always next year. =] Alright, I guess I am going to go get ready for the day. woohoo.
Mollie ♥


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Thursday, June 26, 2008

Wednesday, June 25, 2008


...And yesterday was my 15th birthday, and it was amazing. I love birthdays, but I've noticed in recent years that they are no longer just about presents and stuff, they actually have some real sentimental value. But, I don't really know what that value is yet. School is finally over which means I am finally able to escape all of the crap that was surrounding me the last few weeks. I am not sure why, but some of my friends find it fun to get a rise out of me by bringing up personal things in public. All I know is that I never want to be like that. The last week of school learned that I will not be in symphonic band, because Mr. Carmen says I shouldn't since I just joined third trimester, and I wasn't really able to play most of the trimester because of my hand. =[ haha. So, I am stuck oops, I mean I am placed in concert band for yet another year, but there is a slight chance I could get in symphonic, because Mr. Carmen also recommended that I ask to audition again with the new director after marching band is done. So,I am defiantly planning on practicing my flute...as soon as my hand gets better (hopefully soon=]). I got a job at the pool, and although it is a job, and a good one at that. I am not sure I really like the idea of working, I mean it is a lot of hours and long hours. But its a job, and money, money I need. haha. Hears some pretty big news that is not expected...I actually miss softball. I don't know why, but I do. Buts it not like I could play it anyways with my hand and all. Man, this injury thing is kind becoming a problem, and inconvenience.
Well, I better go. Oh, and before I do....I am now a vegetarian...for now...at least..haha.
♥ Mollie


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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Thursday, May 22, 2008

ak;kjfkda kanjnsiheasdngikamv;noenrbjowkge n;aw. That is seriously how my life feels right now. It seems like an uphill battle, and the top of the hill is no where to be seen. But, I am enduring it and trying to take it one day at a time, and hopefully once I do reach the top it will be a beautiful moment, and believe me I am looking forward to it (maybe a little to much). So you ask, what in the world could be going on that is so bad? Well, in short, I tore the tendon in my hand and it is super painful and now must have surgery in a week and a half to repair it. Which is followed by at least six weeks of immobility and pain...and then three months of physical therapy to regain the use of it. This is where I sing in the part of Avenue Q's "It Sucks To Be Me", that would be a great day. In the world of boys...I like one. His mom knows (thanks to lori's mom) his brother knows (thanks to emily) and I am sure he knows =]. But that is all the details that I am going to go into. Also on that note...tomorrow is day three! and David Cook won American Idol....which means.....♥
Mollie


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Thursday, May 22, 2008

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Here I am yet again sitting on the computer typing my life story to you at nearly eleven o'clock at night. So, lately a lot is happening, but I haven't known about it, because people are becoming really good at talking about me with out me knowing it. I am beginning to learn that everyone has a fake smile or wave that they put on as soon as they see you, but once you leave all they do is talk about you and how horrible you are. Yes, I do think that this horrific crime, that I have so many times commited myself is being acted upon me. But, I am okay with it. I am not even giving it thought during my day. I mean, I think I know who my friends are, although it is coming more and more apparent to me each day who is not my real friend. However, just because someone isn't your friend doesn't mean you can't be friendly with them, or at least that is what my mother always says. I am beginning to realize that maybe some of what my mom does say, is true. But, that is for futher investigation at this point, and no final decisions have been made.
Lately, I have been feeling pressured to do something about something that is going on.....or more honestly.....not going on in my life. But, I do not think that I am ready to do this. I mean, I would love to be ready but I am not personally ready right now. Now please do not jump over the deep end with what I just said, I am not being pressured to smoke, do drugs, or have sex. Believe me this is nothing like that. Anyways, I am really trying to eliminate this thing from my life so that my friends will drop it, but everytime I try....it won't go away. It makes me so mad.
Oh, and if you haven't heard...all of those things where I thought that I was loosing one of my closest friend have come true but luckily for me....I have gained her and her boyfriend along with her "new" best friends and there boyfriends in another catagory of my life and that would be "The people who really hate me, and our out to get me" group. haha But that is okay. I really don't hate any of them at all. I am really trying to work on not having a hard heart (as Emily puts it) towards anyone.
Well I better go lay down, and get some sleep....cause I've got a full day of school and softball tomorrow....woohoo.
G'night
Mollie ♥


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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thursday, April 10, 2008

My God, I am so frusterated.... I really do not want to go to my softball practice today. I mean come on it is spring break and most everyone on my team is either is flordia or somewhere else that is nice and relaxing. They don't have to practice but for some reason, those of us who are stuck here (as if it isn't already bad enough) have to practice at eleven in the morning. Personally, way to early for me to perform well. Also, my coach is on vacation and that is just completley not fair so we have to practice with Varsity....ugh. But on the "brighter" (if you could call it that) side of things...we are doing a scrimage...against who I am unsure. But, if we are doing a scrimage chances are that I won't get to play...which means I can't mess up....or make anyone mad....or make a fool out of myself. Instead I get to sit in the dugout for two hours! woohoo (that is sacrcasm) and if we have to run a mile....there will no longer be a smile on my face. I mean I know that I need to run one...but I really rather not. Other then that my spring break has been fairly dandy....I mean I went shopping yesterday and got so many cute thing s that I can't count them on my hand. I am excited to go back to school, for reasons I have not yet discovered. Okay well it is 9:53 and I guess that I should be attempting to find my cleats....of which I can not find really anywhere....grrr
♥Mollie


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Thursday, April 10, 2008

Sunday, April 6, 2008
Spring....break?

Hmmm let's talk...
I just figured out how to get internet at my grandma's house. Unfortunatly, it is dial up so the it is impossible for me to get to any of my favorite sites in any speedy-quick time. It is spring break! woohoo a full week off of school. So, you ask what is the downside of that? The answer to that question is that there is still softball practice. ugh. We had our first game on tuesday or was it wednesday? I don't know, but either way we won the double headers 6-5 and 16-1. I was really happy and even if I don't have a crucial part on the team, at least I am on the team and to me that is all that matters. Other then softball I really don't have any exciting plans for this week. Maybe some hanging out with friends here and there. But, most of my friends are in floridia or alabama, or somewhere warm like that. Oh, there is one good thing, I am going shopping tomorrow in Kalamazoo! and my mom is paying! (I hope) Other then that nothing is really going on....so I must leave you for another site. haha.
♥Mollie


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Sunday, April 06, 2008

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Currently I am sitting here at my computer, mentally preparing myself for another week filled of drama and softball. Ahhh just thinking about it makes me want to puke. I mean really practices are not that bad, they are just really long. This is how the practice runs... First we go and run our mile, which isn't really all that bad. Then we go into the gym and run a ton of drills, literally running the drills. We do that for about an hour and a half and then switch gyms into the old gym which currently has the cages in them. The cages is my favorite part mainly because it symbolizes that practice is half-way over! The last five minutes of the practice are my least favorite because they are filled of breathless sprints, suicides, and other heartless running drills that the coaches put upon us. And yes, I do know that they are only for our own good, so please save your breath and don't give me that line. Our first game is on Wednesday and I am really excited.
Ahhh I find it really sad that while I sit here all I can seem to think about is softball....grr. I really want to think about other things, but I find it humanly impossible. This is most likely because there is basically nothing going on in my life other then softball, and things that I rather not post on the internet for all the world to see. And that last sentence should only prove to my parents that I do have good judgment.
Haha I did think of something else to type about...WOOHOO So, as basically everyone who knows me knows...I am in love with the musical RENT. So, a few weeks ago I was watching Cold Case and there was this woman who looked really familiar and I couldn't figure out who see was. Then it came upon me that it was Tracie Thoms or Joanne off of Rent. I was like oh, thats cool. Then last night I was watching Law and Order and there was again a familiar face and I quickly realized that he was Angel's lover off of Rent, Tom Collins. I don't know why I am telling you this but it just seemed weird that two of Rent's cast members are now on those two shows...which are seemingly in the same genre.
Sorry if I bored you.
Mollie


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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Quote for today-
"Someone is waiting someone who understands exactly how you feel exactly how you feel.. someone is dreaming someone is hoping just that this will be the day that this will be the day.. that you take your eyes off the ground out of the blue and see that someone is looking right back at you.. maybe that someone's me" - Someone Somewhere by Jason Reeves.
Life is going really good for me right now. Currently I am holding my breath, knocking on wood, and everything else that will not jinks me for saying that. If you haven't already heard, I made the JV softball team! Three girls got cut, and even though I am sure that they gave there best, they sadly didn't make it. I feel very bad for them, and everytime I am tired and hot and sick of practice I have to remind myself that it easily could have been me who was cut. Practices are hot, and very difficult, they last from 3-6 mon-fri, and then usually a morning practice on saturday. Our first game was scheduled for today, but because of the unexpected snow storm, it was cancled.
Softball is not the only thing I have going good for me right now, but also I got back in band and I am more then loving it. I had my first test this week, and most people who know me know, I was extremely nervous. But after all was said and done, I got an A- which is pretty good considering my nerves.
Also, the dust is still clearing on who my friends, are and are not. Although, I think it is becoming pretty clear. There is one girl who I have considered one of my best friends since like 7th grade. Now, she has pretty much dumped me for something she thinks is better, well she hasn't really dumped me she just talks shit about me behind my back. But then blames it on the people she is with. I don't care though, cause I spent all of middle school dealing with this kind of drama, and although we had a lot of good times together I am not going to waste my time on her if she is going to treat me like this. She has also really changed in the last year. She is becoming more and more obsessed about the wrong things, she is dating a guy who has done almost any and everything a teenager can do, and her parents have no idea. I don't know why but, I really don't feel all that bad about losing her as a friend. I guess maybe it was just time.
Other things are seemingly working out differently then I expected and in a good way.
I must leave on that.
Mollie ♥


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Saturday, March 29, 2008

Monday, March 10, 2008
Life and a sad excuse of a group, The Pussy Cat Dolls..

Today was a big day in the life of Mollie, softball try-outs began and I made it through three hours of rigorous practice. I feel very accomplished, having completed that. Also, it was my first day in band class since last year. Oh, how I missed it, and as I tuned for the first time I felt, happy and at home as if I had never left...if only the other people around me felt that happy as well. I am not trying to say that they are mad at me, I just don't think that they were to glad to have me back. Which is perfectly understandable since I literally left them for choir for a year, and then just returned and expected to be accepted. The music that they are playing, seems easy enough, actually it was quite simple, I sightread it wonderfully. I think most everyone expected me to suck, since I took a year off. But, in all reality I have still been in music plenty, just not with my flute, with the piano and choir.
Tonight I was skimming through my sad excuse of TV channels and came across a show on the CW that caught my eye. It did not grab my attention because of how great the show was, but because of the mere fact that it was a pointless show, based on really nothing. It was a reality show, called Girlicious or something along those lines, the name alone gives away the stupidity and shallowness the show has to offer. Basically, the show is somewhat like America's Next Top Model, except trying to make the girls become "International Superstars" like the PussyCatDolls but in all honesty, all that PCD is is "International Sluts". They claim to be "role models" but how can you be when you sing lyrics like "Loosen up my buttons baby" and "You've been saying all the right things all night long But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off". All I am trying to point out is the idiocy of this group. Now, this show is trying to create a "look-a-like" group of them called Girlicious, hence the title. Why in the world would the Creator of PCD make a group that is going to be competition for PCD? That just proves the stupidity of Creator, Robin Antin, who is a 47 year old, obviously trying to look like she is in her mid twenties. The whole basis of this show is nothing. And oh, don't let me forget that one of the judges is Lil' Kim, I mean I am fifteen years old and I barely ever hear Lil' Kim's name. She is no longer famous, she is just trying to regain fame by being on this show.
Alright so there was my update of my life, and my rant of the week.
Love.Me.Leave.Me.Or.Rip.Me.Apart.
Mollie


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Monday, March 10, 2008

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Nothing really to talk about today, although I am sure I will find something to type about. I hope that you like the new look of my blog, I wasn't sold on it until I learned how to navigate it with the hearts, and now I love it. I got my haircut yesterday and I am not sure what I think about it. If I want it to work I am pretty sure that I will have to do something with it everyday. Just wearing it down doesn't really look good. Right now I have it braided, although I can't get it all in braids...haha. So, I just am going to have to live with it for five weeks and then I will get it fixed.
Other then that nothing else is really going on that is that exciting...other then the fact that third trimester is starting on monday...here is my schedule.
1. Honors English
2. Choir
3. Algerbra 1b
4. Band
5. Spanish
Super exciting isn't? So, yes after all is done band is in my schedule. I played my flute for the first time yesterday and as I told my friend, "quickly remembered why I quit". Some of my "friends" say that I am joining band again for the wrong reasons, but I know that I am not. My second surgery is going to be scheduled for the first week of April, and I will hopefully get to see Adam Brody doctor again!! Woohoo! Anyways, I will talk to you later. ♥
Love.Me.Or.Leave.Me.Or.Rip.Me.Apart.
Mollie


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Saturday, March 08, 2008

Monday, February 11, 2008

You know what I am looking forward to? Figuring out who I am. I am so confused right now, I don't know what I am or who I am, everything is just so confusing. What do I want in life? Nothing makes sense anymore, things I thought I was destined to do are slowly becoming more obvious that I am not meant to do them. I honestly thought that I was called to do music, that my career would some how revolve around music. But when I was told I couldn't do band, and when music camp looks nearly impossible for this year. I gave up. You may say I give up too easily, or that I am want things to come to me to easily. But that is not how it is, I just don't want to fight for something that I will regret in a few years.
Also in my life lately I am learning that you can't trust anyone, and that you don't always want the truth, cause man it can hurt. I have had multiple examples of these things in the last few weeks. I have also had a really good thought a few weeks ago concerning someone who at that point was one of my best friends. The thing was that she always is sucking up to people and complimenting them just so that they will never think one thing bad about her. She won't even go out for things that she isn't 100% confident that she is good at. She limits herself, I find this really sad and I honestly pity her. Things between her and I haven't been to great ever since I came upon this revelation, it just bugs me. And as J.D. figures out about Kim in one of my favorite episodes of Scrubs ™ She is trying to keep herself from getting hurt by keeping everyone at a distance, afraid to take risks. I knew that Scrubs ™ was good for something (Aha my mother was wrong).
I find that Scrubs is an amazing conversation starter and connects me with so many other Scrub fanatics. It is amazing! Like seriously there is this kid in one of my classes who I have known for years, and we never really got to know eachother, but then the other day he said John Dorian and there was a connnection. AMEN for Scrubs! Relationship started...and laugh giver. hehe.
Anyways other then that not much is going on in my life, I just got un-grounded, which was nice. Also softball starts in a few weeks which means funfunfun 0_o. Of course getting up to the mile isn't going to be all that much fun but after I am done with it it is over!


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Monday, February 11, 2008

Saturday, January 19, 2008


Being only fourteen, when I announce my political party my parents and others around me seem to giggle. My family is mostly Republican although my mom says she only votes on one issue which is if the candidate is pro-life. I personally am a democrat, and I believe that my family laughs at that because they think that because I am only fourteen I do not no what being a democrat really means. On the issue of abortion, I am personally pro-choice. Although I could never imagine having an abortion (or even becoming pregnant for that matter) I do believe that is some cases it is better for the mother and for the baby to have an abortion. Now I am afraid to post this because I am afraid that I will be attacked by angry mobs of pregnant women and mothers.
Another issue that I strongly believe is that I am not against homosexuals. When talking to many republicans they believe that being gay is a choice and that it is wrong. But I personally believe that those people have never been friends with a gay to know if it is natural or a choice because they have shut them out because of there beliefs.
These issues are also why I struggle with any sense of religion, or Christianity. How can a God of some sorts be against something he made? I honestly do not believe that homosexuals choose to be gay (unless they are highly psychotic). These people are born with an attraction, they cannot help it. Seeing someone going through the pain of "coming out" myself I know that no person could possibly voluntarily put themselves through that. For a while they are hated, talked about, shunned by there friends and even when they are excepted it is not the same. I can not see how ANYONE can claim that they are UN-Godly, or less holy then any other person on this earth! If you do believe this, you are a hypocrite and that is no better then murder.
As I hope you can see, I do know what I talking about and where I stand on certain issues. Oh, and just to let you know if I was eighteen I would be voting for Obama next Novemeber. But sadly I will only be fifteen.


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Saturday, January 19, 2008

Thursday, January 3, 2008

Ok, so I have a minor confession to make, I am obsessed with some outragously gorgeous Hollywood stars. Here would be my top 10....10. Michael Mcdonald (MadTV) 9. Adam Brody 8. Nick Zano 7. John Krasinski 6. Adam Levine 5. Joe Mauer (I know he is not Hollywood) 4. Adam Sandler 3. Rob Lowe 2. Zach Braff 1. Andy Samberg. I guess from this you can also tell my favorite TV shows, lately I have been very big into SNL and MadTV, which makes up three of the people on my list (Adam Sandler, Andy Samberg, and Michael Mcdonald). Also NBC comedies such as Scrubs and The Office have also caught my eye, and I am now a faithful viewer. Of course we cannot forget my favorite baseball team, the Minnesota Twins and its most amazing play ever Joe Mauer. So there you go I have shared my deepest secret with the world-wide internet! Whoa....scary.... Anyways hope all is well with you guys..haven't seen alot of you in a LONG while. Get on MSN or come talk to me at lunch or before school or w/e. ttyl
♥Mollie


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Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thursday, December 27, 2007

I hope everyone had a very merry Christmas, I certainly did but I am happy that it is over now. For Christmas I got, a wii, guitar hero 3, and the keyboard I have been asking for, and well about that Joe Mauer shirt, I will get it some how!! Or I will just buy it..lol I got other things as well but that is just the main things. Now that I got all of the things I have been wanting (other then the shirt) I can start saving my money for music camp! I am so excited about going. This summer is going to be so much fun. I will get my permit, and I will go to music camp for a week, and I am having a HUGE birthday party (yes I have planned it already). But that is just June....the rest of the summer will be tons of fun as well, because I will make it that way. Tomorrow I am going shopping in Detroit with my Uncle's girlfriend.
New Years is going to be sooo awesome this year....well if my parents let it..... Ok well hopefully me and Lori are going to go bowling and then we are going to hang out at my house..then she will go home...and I have to go to the stupid lock-in thing for softball (why did I ever sign up for it?????) then I will go to her house and we will bring in the New Year with our favorite show ever SCRUBS!! Doesn't it sound like fun? I love hanging out with my friends.... Oh I almost forgot Jenn is coming back from Panama in two weeks!! I still have to give her, her Christmas present...lol She is so lucky getting to miss a whole month of school to go to Panama. I would give anything for that. Ok well this is just me writing random stuff because I am bored so well Adios! ♥♥♥♥Mollie


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Thursday, December 27, 2007

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

I am not going to give you crap and tell you of how much I love everything in life, I am not like that. I am a real person with real feelings. I like a lot of things and I dislike quite a few as well. But there are a few things that I cherish greatly that I call my passions. They are the things that force me to go to bed at night and to get up in the morning. They are the things that my life is made up of 24/7. There are only four of them, and you may say “That is a shame that you only have four things to live for”. But to me I look at it as a blessing, so many people don’t have something they would die for, or something that they would give in the money in the world to experience again, but I do I have four of them.
My first passion seems quite simple it is softball. Softball is something that I have look forward to playing every year since I was five. It is like Christmas for me every time I walk on to a softball field. On that field my best qualities are shown. I play first base, a position that leads the team. When you play first base you have to protect your base and not let anyone get on it, you have to be ready and your team has to trust you. When I go up to bat I can show my competitive nature and swing hit and then run. There is no greater feeling then to hit a ball with all of your might and then race to first base, maybe second, and hopefully home. I live for softball and as soon as the season comes around that is all I will breath.
My second passion is music. Music is like a second family for me, it is everywhere. I can go to the store and hear music, I can to a softball game, school, the park, anywhere and everywhere there is music. Not everyone notices it but it makes up such a huge part of our lives. When I stand proud in my choir singing my heart out to words that mean so much to me, I feel amazing. Sometimes during a performance I will just want to stop and take all of it in, listen to the beautiful harmonies and just breath it in. There is magic in choir when beautiful music is made. When I play the piano, people gather around to watch my fingers move ever so gracefully up and down the piano. I love to watch the joy in there eyes, it may seem like showing off, but it is not. I just like to show people a piece of what I enjoy and what I feel when I play.
My third passion is my friends, when I have a problem I can turn to them and they will either cheer me up or give it to me straight and tell me to get over myself. They support me and push me to do things that I want to do but I don’t feel confident enough to, they make me confident. My friends are the greatest and I appreciate them so much. Whenever I need to talk I just pick up my phone and dial there number, and talk to them about whatever, we can do this for hours. They are the people I want to spend the weekend hanging out with and they are the few people that know the real me, most everyone else judges me because of what they have heard and that is another reason they are such great friends, they gave me a chance.
My final passion is my family, they have made me who I am today and I would not be able to have great friends without their guidance of who to hang out with. I would not be able to have a passion for music if they had not paid for piano lessons when I was a young child, and I would not have been introduced to my love for softball if my dad had not forced me to go to practices and games and told me to “walk it off’. If my dad had not have had been a fan of Tigers baseball, maybe I would never had understood the game to the fullest. Every thing that makes me who I am is because of my parents.


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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Well I have to say that I love my new background...it is so well wintry. But I am sure that I will change it soon, I have found this great new site that offers really cool layouts....it is http://www.pimp-my-profile.com/ I know it sounds gay but there aren't very many sites that offer cool layouts for blogger. Anywho so well the countdown to Christmas is well underway with only 5 more days to go. The top things on my Christmas list are.....1. A keyboard....2. A Joe Mauer or Minnesota Twins T-shirt......3. And anything else that I have mentioned that I can not think of at this time...lol
These last few weeks have been partially difficult, I say partially because it could be worse. Some of my closest friends have been accusing me of changing, some saying it to my face, others behind my back, and then some who I can see it in there eyes. I am not trying to change and if I am I believe it is for the better. Some people have been accusing me of changing and turning into something I am not, this hurts really bad because it is coming from peoples mouths that I have called my best friends for a long time. I thought that they knew me better then that, but obviously I was wrong. I am not saying that I have not differed, but I wouldn't say that I have changed, if I have done anything I have grown, I have just expanded my friendships with other people. But I can not change my friends opinions just prove them wrong.
Tomorrow night is my first choir concert of high school! I am super excited and well kind of nervous. My section is not what you may say the strongest right now, for some reason it seems that the altos are always in some kind of fight except for me, Amy, and Jaycie. Sometimes I just wish that I could hand pick our choir, cause well you know anything I create is well.....amazing...lol I better go get some sleep I am exhausted.....Buenos Noches....♥Mollie


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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Thursday, December 13, 2007

HAHAHA now my site is for select readers only....whahahaha now freaks can no longer read it....no offense. I really want a myspace but my parents won't let me =( Oh and the big news of the day is
I'M GOING TO BE IN BAND 3rd TRIMESTER!!
Yes that's right, the girl who swore she would never go to back to band misses it. I can't believe I do because I hated it so much last year but now I really miss it. Hopefully my braces will be off by 3rd trimester so that I can have a somewhat less airy sound. I know that I am not as bad as I make myself sound. Most of time the problem with my flute was just nerves and the fact that it is totally messed up.....ugh. I still wish that I didn't play the flute but I rather be playing something then nothing....OMG there is something for me to email Jenn about...=) I am so bored right now I was doing my homework but I finished it. Tomorrow is my presentation for English on my Greek person PENELOPE and she is like the least interesting person on earth. The only reason she is famous is because she married Odysseus, and she stayed married to him for 20 years while he was fighting in the Trojan War...yes I know you probably fell asleep reading that but I have to do a full presentation on it and we all know that I am a mess when I have to present in front of a class. I get the worst panic attacks, of course no one ever believes me when I say that because I don't tell people when I am getting them and you can only really tell if you are staring at me....at least that is what I have been told...lol ☻Anyways I better at least try to find some interesting facts on Penelope, so farewell (lol) adios and BYE ♥ mE


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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Sunday, December 9, 2007

And the quote above that I wrote about the little flame has finally been fulfilled, my heart broke when I saw what I saw and I just stared and all of my memories of him and I ran through my head and I could not think for hours. I dreamt them and woke up with them in my head. The whole day I could not accomplish anything without and thought or one hundred of him. I just hope the feeling stops so that the hurt can as well. When you put so much of your time thinking of someone and talking to them, to see that they really want someone else, it hurts and it stings. Everyone I talk to gives some piece of advice but I don't think they truely understand. My weakness is that I cannot share my feelings well and it always comes across weird. I hate it and I hate myself for this. I get so scared and frozen I am not at all confident. I have no idea what the whole thing I saw meant but it got to me, and I blame only myself. If I would have said something or did something differently maybe the outcome would have better, I dont know. Even after all of this the flame is still burning and ugh I hate it so much. But I am also proud of something I did, I did not take this action personally and today I did something I would not normally do. If you want to know then email me or talk to me at school, I have got to go to bed.
♥♥♥Mollie


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Sunday, December 09, 2007

Tuesday, December 4, 2007
blah blah blah

UGH....some people just disgust me, it is not there cleanliness (although that does make me gag, I mean honestly just take a shower!) but there judging and how ignorant they can be to people। How they can just completely ignore someones feelings and only think of themselves. I'm not saying that I am not guilty of this myself but, how can some people be guilty of it so frequently? I feel so bad for it when I do it and I can't feel good about what I did until I really talk to them and make sure that they are ok with me. That is why I am so unsettled inside about lauren and Abby, not so much with Kaity because I don't feel any anger or hate towards her and I really don't mind her. During the play I was able to talk to her like a normal human being, unlike with Lauren and Abby who act like animal hiding from me as if I am the plague. I don't understand how you can go from best friends to biggest enemies. It just seems impossible and undermines the friendship that we did once have. I just hate it, I want the friendship we had to of worked out, the things we shared and the memories we made. That is probably my biggest fear..that I will get in a fight like I did with the twins with somebody else. If that happened I don't know if I could emotionally put up with it. Or even physically put up with it either. That is why I find it so hard to invite new frineds to my house to hang out because I am always wondering....what if? This is a trust issue that I need to work out with myself. Jennifer left for Panama on Wednesday =( which is sad because who I am going to talk to during english? Snowball is tomorrow and I am getting ready with Becky and I am super excited. I feel bad for Jenn that she has to miss this, but she is not going to Panama next year so she will be able to go to snowball! Ok well I better get going I have soooo much to do tonight, such as.....NOTHING! lol
♥ Mollie


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Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Friday, November 30, 2007

For some reason I have recently noticed that I write my best thoughts late at night, I don't know if it is just a matter of being to reflect throughout the whole day or if it is just that late at night I can not controls what comes out. The second trimester is finally over and now I have three new classes to look forward to, World Geography, Algebra 1 and Spanish. Im sure that all of my teachers are as excited to meet me as I them (lol). Tomorrow I am going bowling with Jenn and some friends I am super excited. It will be fun, plus tomorrow is the Christmas parade which my mother thinks for some reason I would want to walk in but I dont, it is a MAJOR embarrassment to walk in the Christmas parade with your brothers elementary school. Ugh Some many things are going on, Oh and Hey when you see me next time ask me about my really weird dream that i oh so wish was true......ask and I will tell you...unless I dont trust you. Just kidding..
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY BECKY! ☻☺
♥♥♥♥Mollie


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Friday, November 30, 2007

Wednesday, November 28, 2007
AGHH

Indeed, it is almost December, for months now the drama of snowball has been occuring but my is it bad now. Everyone is talking who is going with who and so on and so forth, I just listen and laugh. It doesn't really matter to me I am not going to make a huge deal out of one night. It is exam week as well this week, and man am I exhusted. I feel like I am learning all of this matriel for the first time instead of just reviewing. AHHHHHHHHHH Jennifer is leaving for Panama on Wednesday =( and we are having a going away party for her on Saturday we are going bowling! I am defiently looking forward to it. Ok well I better try to get some sleep because the last few nights I have been up until 12 just thinking ♥♥♥♥♥♥ so nighty night


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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Saturday, November 24, 2007
Thanksgiving etc.

I can smell the turkey, it makes me want to gag. We have meals containing turkey since thursday, and I need a rest. Thanksgiving was nice but man am I glad that it is over. I can only imagine how many calories I consumed and how much weight I most likely gained. That and that reason alone is the reason I am going to go to weight training this week. Ok well I guess that I am also going to go and get ready for softball, so that I can kick ass. Which I will already do anyways, but a little training will only help me more. Plus my parents are all up in my grill (lol) about me getting more execise. Yeah, I probably need it and I want to do it, the fact is though that I never have enough time. ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!


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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Heaven and hell are a concept that I am I find impossible to comprehend. I can not figure how there is a heaven. I know that you just have to believe, but I for some reason need to have some kind of prof that Heaven and Hell are true. Isn't christianity just a HUGE cult? I have been asking myself this question for a while and have been researching cults and Christianity fits the definition perfectly. I am not saying that I don't believe in God. But I am just wondering how Jesus can be believed any more then any other cult leader, such as Jim Jones. I don't agree with Jim Jones on any level but I am just comparing the two. I need answers.....


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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Friday, November 16, 2007
PLEASE READ ALL and COMMENT! I NEED YOUR HELP ☻♥☺

The week is over and all I can say is THANK GOD IT IS FRIDAY! It has been a pretty long with projects and tests. I have had a chemistry test and a physics, American history, and English project all that can either majorly help or hurt my grade. I am within two percent of all my grades becoming an A. All I need to do is kick butt on my exams and I will be pretty well off. Everything should begin to slow down now that the trimester is coming to an end. I am so excited to start new classes. Ahhhhh I have a question for my oh so many fans...do you think that I am self confident? I need honest opinions and I need honest suggestions. I want to better myself. If you have constructive criticism I will take it. I really want to become a nicer, better person, and I think that asking my peers will help the most. People our age always judging people...so how do you judge me? I have been called so many names in my life, and yeah it hurts but you just learn to build up an immunity to it. But i am letting that "wall" down to help me. Say what ever you want, good or bad. Tell me what you think. Who knows it may help you drop the grudge you hold against me from who knows when. Don't even leave your name if you don't want to. I just really want to know what you think....anything goes.


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Friday, November 16, 2007

Thursday, November 15, 2007

I have some of the best friends a girl could have, they are not fake and they are not slutty. They don't try to conform me and they try to help me if I am helpless. They support me in almost every decision I make but yet tell me when I am doing something wrong. We can laugh for days and cry for hours. We can talk about the most boring subject on earth and some how make it one of our best memories. We don't go "way" back but we make so many memories that it seems as if we are one. Every single day I am reminded of how great my friends are and today was a day of multiple examples. At the bottom of my page are pics of my closest friends and a little background info on our friendship.
I don't just want to talk about my friends I have now because they have not been my friends forever. I also want to talk about some of my past friends and the reasons that we are no longer friends. Last year my best friends were Lauren and Abby, why our friendship did not work out, I am still not sure. The days that we were friends were amazing. I believe that I had more laughs and more tears in that friendship then any other. They were absolutely the best friends ever and although they may deny it now we had a ton of fun. It seems that now a days we cannot even look at each other in the eyes, which is very sad and I deeply regret it. We had multiple fights during that one year and I think it made me a emotional wreck. I feel so sorry for hurting them and I regret every mean word I ever said to them. Maybe I thought they deserved it at the time but now that I am on the other side of it, I feel awful. I don't necessarily ever want to be friends with them again. But I would like to be acquittance's with them. I get so sick of walking in front of the hall and hearing "Bitch" in context of me. I am so sick of talking to one of my friends and then the twins calling them over to "talk" to them. What is the point of sabotaging all of my friendships when all I want is for everyone to get along. Is that honestly to much to ask?
Other friendships I have had have just faded away in my memories and I am happy of that. If you ask me there is no reason to keep bad memories in your head, all they will do is bring you down. Ok well that is all i have to say write now.♥ Mollie

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Here I go again ♥☺☻♥

My head is running with hundreds of thoughts, some good others bad. I am feeling very disapointed in myself, I feel like I could be doing a lot better in many aspects of my life. But yet I am not sure that I want to change. What I wish is that I could start my whole life over again. Believe me I would not be the person who I am today. (Im sure many of you wish that could happen to me to). I am feeling myself fall into this somewhat "depressed" mood. I am starting to contradict some of my core beliefs and values. I am starting to contradict so many things my whole out look on life. So many things are changing in my life right now, so many people are changing right in front of my eyes and I am just not ready to change with them. But you see not changing is forcing me to be left behind. Last year I thought that I had found the real me, my place in life. But know all of that is gone and I feel unwanted, unliked, and worthless. I am begining to see the evils in the world are not just in "big" cities, but right in my neighborhood. Right in the house of my best friends. How unfair life is to some people that deserve only the best. Another thing that I have been trying to fight is the feeling that friends are supposed to be perfect and understand what I am feeling. But I have the best thing nexy to perfect. My friends are great and that has been proven many times this week. I want to give a BIG thank you to all of my friends and putting up with me for as long as they have. I only wish that I could be as good of a friend as they are to me.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Update

The musical is FINALLY over. It was a great experience and although it was exhusting and at times boring I am looking forward to doing it again next year. I met some truly amazing people and I hope to stay friends with them throughout this year. Some of the people who went out it was there first musical and you would of never guessed it they were so good. It wasn't that they weren't nervous or anything, but they were genuinly good, and well if I do say so myself, talented. These last few days I have felt very out of touch with my feelings and I have began to feel, misunderstood and well kind of left behind. I was feeling all of this until today when I had a two and a half hour conversation with Jenn. Although we were mostly talking about Jenn and her friendships it really helped me more then she could ever know. Talking to her helped me realize that my feelings that sometimes feel rediculous, maybe are a bit normal. Her and I are going through somewhat simalar situations and it really helped to talk things through with her. So guess what faithful reader? I like yet another guy.....this mystery person and I are friends but I just met him so I am not telling to many people. At this moment there is only pretty much only three people who know who he is. Thats actually pretty good for me. If you want to know well then I will have to trust you and well if you dont know by now then I probably dont. But that can always change.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Monday, October 29, 2007
This week☺

Long weekend this week and that is why I am writing now because there is no school! It has been a pretty nice weekend, relaxing and stuff. On Friday Lori came and spent the night and well we just hanged out. Halloween is on Wednesday and I don't think I am going to go trick-or-treating. I was going to go with Chasity but, since all of this drama with her home-life she decided not to. I was really disapointed and in a way angry because I do want to go just not with my parents or by myself. But it is not like I couldn't invite someone else, I guess I just really wanted to hang out with Chas. Also this week is my Kalamazoo Symphony Orchastra concert. I am so hyped about going, this is why I love choir it gives me this thrill that nobody else I know seems to understand. I think that choir might be my first real "passion". I mean I enjoy other things but when I talk about choir I get so in to it and I can't even explain the feeling I get from it. Some people say that they are a choir or band geek but honestly if you looked up "choir geek" in the dictionary my face would be right there. When I die I pray that Heaven is filled with choir groups singing all kinds of music with all kinds of harmony and stuff, with tons of tri-tones and other great things that music can create. Oh how could I forget I got a new piece of music for me to sight read today. It is "Hey There Delilah" which is getting kind of old but I think the piano part is beautiful so I am going to try it. Wish me luck I will tell you how it sounds next time.
♥ Mollie

Oh and I have now mastered "What I've done" By Linkin Park ♫♪♫♪

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Saturday, October 27, 2007
Right now....

This is my new blog, I will no longer be using my old one. This blog is going to be open and more about my life, my friendships, and other things. If people have a problem with me express my ideas and feelings then they don't have to read. Lately I have been just trying to keep up with homework and keeping my grades up to expectation. Amy and Becky and I have started weight training for softball and tennis. The first day wasn't to hard but the day after that I was SUPER sore. But after that we were right back in the weight training room lifting. We are also running, I don't really want to lose weight but I would like to get in better shape and be healthier. These last weeks I have also become friends with some of the people I would of never expected. We are currently going through the same things and it is nice to know that I can trust them and vent some of my feeling with them but still have fun. All I can say is that life is being good to me right now.

♥ Mollie

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Saturday, October 27, 2007