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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Here I am yet again sitting on the computer typing my life story to you at nearly eleven o'clock at night. So, lately a lot is happening, but I haven't known about it, because people are becoming really good at talking about me with out me knowing it. I am beginning to learn that everyone has a fake smile or wave that they put on as soon as they see you, but once you leave all they do is talk about you and how horrible you are. Yes, I do think that this horrific crime, that I have so many times commited myself is being acted upon me. But, I am okay with it. I am not even giving it thought during my day. I mean, I think I know who my friends are, although it is coming more and more apparent to me each day who is not my real friend. However, just because someone isn't your friend doesn't mean you can't be friendly with them, or at least that is what my mother always says. I am beginning to realize that maybe some of what my mom does say, is true. But, that is for futher investigation at this point, and no final decisions have been made.
Lately, I have been feeling pressured to do something about something that is going on.....or more honestly.....not going on in my life. But, I do not think that I am ready to do this. I mean, I would love to be ready but I am not personally ready right now. Now please do not jump over the deep end with what I just said, I am not being pressured to smoke, do drugs, or have sex. Believe me this is nothing like that. Anyways, I am really trying to eliminate this thing from my life so that my friends will drop it, but everytime I try....it won't go away. It makes me so mad.
Oh, and if you haven't heard...all of those things where I thought that I was loosing one of my closest friend have come true but luckily for me....I have gained her and her boyfriend along with her "new" best friends and there boyfriends in another catagory of my life and that would be "The people who really hate me, and our out to get me" group. haha But that is okay. I really don't hate any of them at all. I am really trying to work on not having a hard heart (as Emily puts it) towards anyone.
Well I better go lay down, and get some sleep....cause I've got a full day of school and softball tomorrow....woohoo.
G'night
Mollie ♥

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thursday, April 10, 2008

My God, I am so frusterated.... I really do not want to go to my softball practice today. I mean come on it is spring break and most everyone on my team is either is flordia or somewhere else that is nice and relaxing. They don't have to practice but for some reason, those of us who are stuck here (as if it isn't already bad enough) have to practice at eleven in the morning. Personally, way to early for me to perform well. Also, my coach is on vacation and that is just completley not fair so we have to practice with Varsity....ugh. But on the "brighter" (if you could call it that) side of things...we are doing a scrimage...against who I am unsure. But, if we are doing a scrimage chances are that I won't get to play...which means I can't mess up....or make anyone mad....or make a fool out of myself. Instead I get to sit in the dugout for two hours! woohoo (that is sacrcasm) and if we have to run a mile....there will no longer be a smile on my face. I mean I know that I need to run one...but I really rather not. Other then that my spring break has been fairly dandy....I mean I went shopping yesterday and got so many cute thing s that I can't count them on my hand. I am excited to go back to school, for reasons I have not yet discovered. Okay well it is 9:53 and I guess that I should be attempting to find my cleats....of which I can not find really anywhere....grrr
♥Mollie

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Spring....break?

Hmmm let's talk...
I just figured out how to get internet at my grandma's house. Unfortunatly, it is dial up so the it is impossible for me to get to any of my favorite sites in any speedy-quick time. It is spring break! woohoo a full week off of school. So, you ask what is the downside of that? The answer to that question is that there is still softball practice. ugh. We had our first game on tuesday or was it wednesday? I don't know, but either way we won the double headers 6-5 and 16-1. I was really happy and even if I don't have a crucial part on the team, at least I am on the team and to me that is all that matters. Other then softball I really don't have any exciting plans for this week. Maybe some hanging out with friends here and there. But, most of my friends are in floridia or alabama, or somewhere warm like that. Oh, there is one good thing, I am going shopping tomorrow in Kalamazoo! and my mom is paying! (I hope) Other then that nothing is really going on....so I must leave you for another site. haha.
♥Mollie

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Sunday, April 06, 2008