about the escaper
MollyBailey
You know you love me, xoxo.
Michigan Simplicity is key, complexity is fun.

past escapes
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008

My Music♥
Mayday Parade, Forever The Sickest Kids, The Devil Wears Prada
Dance Gavin Dance, Cobra Starship, All Time Low, Flyleaf
Shawayze, Katy Perry, Fireflight, Chiodos, Eatmewhileimhot
Automatic Loveletter, Family Force 5, We The Kings, Every Avenue

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Friday, November 30, 2007

For some reason I have recently noticed that I write my best thoughts late at night, I don't know if it is just a matter of being to reflect throughout the whole day or if it is just that late at night I can not controls what comes out. The second trimester is finally over and now I have three new classes to look forward to, World Geography, Algebra 1 and Spanish. Im sure that all of my teachers are as excited to meet me as I them (lol). Tomorrow I am going bowling with Jenn and some friends I am super excited. It will be fun, plus tomorrow is the Christmas parade which my mother thinks for some reason I would want to walk in but I dont, it is a MAJOR embarrassment to walk in the Christmas parade with your brothers elementary school. Ugh Some many things are going on, Oh and Hey when you see me next time ask me about my really weird dream that i oh so wish was true......ask and I will tell you...unless I dont trust you. Just kidding..
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY BECKY! ☻☺
♥♥♥♥Mollie


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Friday, November 30, 2007

Wednesday, November 28, 2007
AGHH

Indeed, it is almost December, for months now the drama of snowball has been occuring but my is it bad now. Everyone is talking who is going with who and so on and so forth, I just listen and laugh. It doesn't really matter to me I am not going to make a huge deal out of one night. It is exam week as well this week, and man am I exhusted. I feel like I am learning all of this matriel for the first time instead of just reviewing. AHHHHHHHHHH Jennifer is leaving for Panama on Wednesday =( and we are having a going away party for her on Saturday we are going bowling! I am defiently looking forward to it. Ok well I better try to get some sleep because the last few nights I have been up until 12 just thinking ♥♥♥♥♥♥ so nighty night


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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Saturday, November 24, 2007
Thanksgiving etc.

I can smell the turkey, it makes me want to gag. We have meals containing turkey since thursday, and I need a rest. Thanksgiving was nice but man am I glad that it is over. I can only imagine how many calories I consumed and how much weight I most likely gained. That and that reason alone is the reason I am going to go to weight training this week. Ok well I guess that I am also going to go and get ready for softball, so that I can kick ass. Which I will already do anyways, but a little training will only help me more. Plus my parents are all up in my grill (lol) about me getting more execise. Yeah, I probably need it and I want to do it, the fact is though that I never have enough time. ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS!!


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Saturday, November 24, 2007

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Heaven and hell are a concept that I am I find impossible to comprehend. I can not figure how there is a heaven. I know that you just have to believe, but I for some reason need to have some kind of prof that Heaven and Hell are true. Isn't christianity just a HUGE cult? I have been asking myself this question for a while and have been researching cults and Christianity fits the definition perfectly. I am not saying that I don't believe in God. But I am just wondering how Jesus can be believed any more then any other cult leader, such as Jim Jones. I don't agree with Jim Jones on any level but I am just comparing the two. I need answers.....


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Sunday, November 18, 2007

Friday, November 16, 2007
PLEASE READ ALL and COMMENT! I NEED YOUR HELP ☻♥☺

The week is over and all I can say is THANK GOD IT IS FRIDAY! It has been a pretty long with projects and tests. I have had a chemistry test and a physics, American history, and English project all that can either majorly help or hurt my grade. I am within two percent of all my grades becoming an A. All I need to do is kick butt on my exams and I will be pretty well off. Everything should begin to slow down now that the trimester is coming to an end. I am so excited to start new classes. Ahhhhh I have a question for my oh so many fans...do you think that I am self confident? I need honest opinions and I need honest suggestions. I want to better myself. If you have constructive criticism I will take it. I really want to become a nicer, better person, and I think that asking my peers will help the most. People our age always judging people...so how do you judge me? I have been called so many names in my life, and yeah it hurts but you just learn to build up an immunity to it. But i am letting that "wall" down to help me. Say what ever you want, good or bad. Tell me what you think. Who knows it may help you drop the grudge you hold against me from who knows when. Don't even leave your name if you don't want to. I just really want to know what you think....anything goes.


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Friday, November 16, 2007

Thursday, November 15, 2007

I have some of the best friends a girl could have, they are not fake and they are not slutty. They don't try to conform me and they try to help me if I am helpless. They support me in almost every decision I make but yet tell me when I am doing something wrong. We can laugh for days and cry for hours. We can talk about the most boring subject on earth and some how make it one of our best memories. We don't go "way" back but we make so many memories that it seems as if we are one. Every single day I am reminded of how great my friends are and today was a day of multiple examples. At the bottom of my page are pics of my closest friends and a little background info on our friendship.
I don't just want to talk about my friends I have now because they have not been my friends forever. I also want to talk about some of my past friends and the reasons that we are no longer friends. Last year my best friends were Lauren and Abby, why our friendship did not work out, I am still not sure. The days that we were friends were amazing. I believe that I had more laughs and more tears in that friendship then any other. They were absolutely the best friends ever and although they may deny it now we had a ton of fun. It seems that now a days we cannot even look at each other in the eyes, which is very sad and I deeply regret it. We had multiple fights during that one year and I think it made me a emotional wreck. I feel so sorry for hurting them and I regret every mean word I ever said to them. Maybe I thought they deserved it at the time but now that I am on the other side of it, I feel awful. I don't necessarily ever want to be friends with them again. But I would like to be acquittance's with them. I get so sick of walking in front of the hall and hearing "Bitch" in context of me. I am so sick of talking to one of my friends and then the twins calling them over to "talk" to them. What is the point of sabotaging all of my friendships when all I want is for everyone to get along. Is that honestly to much to ask?
Other friendships I have had have just faded away in my memories and I am happy of that. If you ask me there is no reason to keep bad memories in your head, all they will do is bring you down. Ok well that is all i have to say write now.♥ Mollie

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Here I go again ♥☺☻♥

My head is running with hundreds of thoughts, some good others bad. I am feeling very disapointed in myself, I feel like I could be doing a lot better in many aspects of my life. But yet I am not sure that I want to change. What I wish is that I could start my whole life over again. Believe me I would not be the person who I am today. (Im sure many of you wish that could happen to me to). I am feeling myself fall into this somewhat "depressed" mood. I am starting to contradict some of my core beliefs and values. I am starting to contradict so many things my whole out look on life. So many things are changing in my life right now, so many people are changing right in front of my eyes and I am just not ready to change with them. But you see not changing is forcing me to be left behind. Last year I thought that I had found the real me, my place in life. But know all of that is gone and I feel unwanted, unliked, and worthless. I am begining to see the evils in the world are not just in "big" cities, but right in my neighborhood. Right in the house of my best friends. How unfair life is to some people that deserve only the best. Another thing that I have been trying to fight is the feeling that friends are supposed to be perfect and understand what I am feeling. But I have the best thing nexy to perfect. My friends are great and that has been proven many times this week. I want to give a BIG thank you to all of my friends and putting up with me for as long as they have. I only wish that I could be as good of a friend as they are to me.

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Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Update

The musical is FINALLY over. It was a great experience and although it was exhusting and at times boring I am looking forward to doing it again next year. I met some truly amazing people and I hope to stay friends with them throughout this year. Some of the people who went out it was there first musical and you would of never guessed it they were so good. It wasn't that they weren't nervous or anything, but they were genuinly good, and well if I do say so myself, talented. These last few days I have felt very out of touch with my feelings and I have began to feel, misunderstood and well kind of left behind. I was feeling all of this until today when I had a two and a half hour conversation with Jenn. Although we were mostly talking about Jenn and her friendships it really helped me more then she could ever know. Talking to her helped me realize that my feelings that sometimes feel rediculous, maybe are a bit normal. Her and I are going through somewhat simalar situations and it really helped to talk things through with her. So guess what faithful reader? I like yet another guy.....this mystery person and I are friends but I just met him so I am not telling to many people. At this moment there is only pretty much only three people who know who he is. Thats actually pretty good for me. If you want to know well then I will have to trust you and well if you dont know by now then I probably dont. But that can always change.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007